寂寞小姐

It has been some time I have not using English to write my blog

Since there are some probs with the language bar..this is a chance^^

Ya, I am currently mentally stressed again.

I can hardly sleep until 4 to 5 o'clock in the morning, even though I have been working

Its very haard to sleep at night now, whenever I close my eyes, my stupid brain will start to run..

I'll start thinking a lot

Plus, my mom is going out frequently with a guy recently -- her bf

and she also started to stay overnight at his place..

I understand very much that they are very in love currently

but it seems that she has forgotten tht she has a home here, whereby 2 daughters are waiting for her to come back

I've faught with her and she doesn't want to listen

Whenever she goes out with that guy after picking me up from work,

I know that she will not come back tonight

Our faith in her is totally debolished...by her own selfishness

I felt like an orphan sometimes..

my dad has partly abandon us, now my mom's turn

I start to understand the feelings of an orphan waiting for his parents to come and pick him from the orphanage..its sooooo sad

For now, I'm very tired of arguing, it's useless...is it so hard to hope to be happy???

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Part of my stress -- my bf

I've juz gone into a relationship with a Malay guy, and I'm a chinese

Apparently, this is quite a big issue to my family

and only my mom and sis and a few close friends know about this matter

I can't say that I love him..its part of the progress now

but I like the sweetness between us

However, I'm not very sure whether he really cares about me or not..

I kept on thinking just now..and I couldn't sleep then

Haiz..hope that our relationship will prolong and..he'll care more about me~~